So my best friend called me out over the last few days...He claims I am not really "gay".
Why this topic would even arise?
We were talking about what we would do for someone we were physically attracted to. Many straight and gay men would do a lot for someone they attracted to get something in return. I on the other hand need a lot from someone to be even physically attracted to them. You could line up 100 guys that I had never met, and I could easily rate them based on looks. Some I would simply never be interested in, some, just by their looks, I would want to get to know because it would look like there is something more to them, and some I might think they are so far out of my zone that I would never even think of them on the attraction scale.
Another awkward moment with all this...A guy I have chatted with over the last few months texted me again. We started to rekindle a possible relationship, and then BAM, I remembered where the original problem came into play. He started sending me pictures of himself. He is a very good looking guy, but for whatever reason it bugs me. He then wants pictures of me, which I have sent (all with clothes on, don't worry :)). I just hate that I am not interested in the picture exchange at all, and this is huge for him. Am I really just not sexual at all and really want just friends... Not sure that is it either.
So why is there no guy that just equals instant attraction for me? When someone falls into the I want to get know them category, they have the most potential to be extremely attractive.
I told my friend that I wish I could just be like the majority of guys, and he then said I would be shallow. I guess I am not the average guy, and that's okay. Just one more part of my sexuality that I do not get. Good news it that I won't have a super strong desire to pursue someone just for their amazing bod... bad news... Well, I guess we can skip that bad news and hope for the best.
I am happy for my blog because I don't have to have answers, but at least I can talk it out.
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2 comments:
Yeah, I was going to comment, but then you added it in the next paragraph... SHALLOW. You're not, and that's the problem (according to some).
I hate the notion of a picture exchange--or the shirtless (and headless) profile pictures you see on connexion--and yet I am very much physically attracted to men. I think your friend has a very strange understanding of heterosexuality, much less homosexuality. Don't let him be the definition of masculinity.
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