Being Gay and Mormon

I have a special group of people that can see when I post a new blog on Facebook. This group started as a small handful of people I was okay with knowing the intimate details of my life. As of tonight, it is about 75% of the people I know. With this, I was thinking I would spend a post to refocus where I am at with the Gay Mormon thing which is why I started posting in the first place.

So the recap is I knew I liked guys and not girls at 13, joined the church at 16, became okay with being gay a year ago. More details on all this in past posts.

Where exactly am I know. Well, I am somewhat hesitant to still call myself LDS anymore. I have began going on dates with guys and see myself with a guy as a life partner if all goes well. If I was to pursue this as I would like, I would surely be excommunicated and not have a place in the church.

Is it that easy just to walk away? Nope.

When I choose to join the church, it was because of a very personal spiritual experience that I still do not doubt. The thing is though is that I also had a spiritual experience on the same level that has led me to take the path of dating men. Is one greater than the other. Yes, and that would be the latter. We are taught that by their fruits, ye shall know them. The happiness and joy that has come from self acceptance and dating people I am attracted to is more than I have ever felt. My desire to do good has increased, and I want to live again.

Some people say these answers conflict and only one can be right.

For those people, I direct them to the person who is leading me in my choices. God. I know that God loves us all and knows us each, as an individual. Why would the creator of all be bound to not give me personal revelation?

So gay and mormon for me means keeping my relationship with the Savior, being a good person, and finding happiness and joy so I can share it with others.

Love you all!